As I stood in the shower this morning I remember many a time at my highest weight I would vow that if I was ever back to normal and I gained even 10 pounds it would go no further. I would stop the weight gain then and there.
"It's NOT about the WEIGHT I've been told". But even in my pre-op therapy evaluation I remember telling the therapist... "ok now I GET IT. I know I'm fat. I know I over eat... okay? I GET IT! I get that I got here bite by bite and pound by pound. If I get this chance I won't blow it."
But here I am about 10 pounds over my lowest of 177 from a high of 391 and will I blow it?
I walked most days for more than a year. I stopped and its oh so much harder going back to it. I started again today. I have a Dr. appointment in 30 days... I need to walk 30 days and get my act together so I don't go in there with a 12 pound gain or worse!
Am I woman enough to make this happen? I think I am. I'll keep me posted on here. Kinda an accountability thing.
