A good thought

I have an issue that is undiagnosed. I have huge calves. My Doctors says I am carrying about 50-60 pounds of weight in my lower legs. Is it lymphodema or not? I have no reason to have it as it generally affects just one limb and it is a by product of Chemo generally after Breast cancer. I have not had cancer and my calves have always been larger than my body but my ankles are still AWOL.
The fact is my calves are huge... and have been for years although now that I have lost just about 200 pounds it is more noticeable. No cure... no real treatment. Just keep losing weight and see what happens. Went to a specialist and have now seen 3 Doctors... no studies being done, no research on it. A good friend mentioned to me today however that even if I have only 30 pounds of water in my legs I have reached the over 200 pounds lost! And that is a VERY GOOD THING :)

Holiday Blessings or ... gee it's not fun to eat anymore!

Amazing but true. Eating or rather the act of eating is a lost art. A HUGE part of any Holiday used to be the meal. I think normal weight people loved the meal too .. right? But it appears now as they don't... well at least I no longer enjoy it. I love the look and smell of the food but honestly, it's just not fun eating anymore. No matter where I go or who I eat with... eating is an ordeal of epic portions. My eyes are still bigger than my stomach although when I look at their plates I am shocked knowing that just 2 short years ago my plate was at least that overflowing large as well. Mine looks miserly as a comparison but then eating it also becomes an event. Protein first yummy, potatoes or veggies a bite or two then Protein., and wow I'm almost too full.. gotta slow down gotta be careful... what a drag! But 200 pounds less of a drag and frankly I 'll TAKE IT!
Merry Christmas!

Under 200 pounds... soon!

I HOPE to be under 200 pounds by Christmas or New Years... that's just 8 pounds (it was just 5 pounds YESTERDAY!) I do not even remember being under 200 pounds... maybe 1976 or earlier? Oh My Goodness!
Need to get my blood panel done. Had the bone density although the Dr. did not read it today. Must must must keep up the testing to make sure that the Frankenstein stomach and intestines are working at their optimum and keeping me on track. What a shame to go to all this work and fall apart and crumble from too little calcium or vitamins.
Whoo hoo 199 here I come!

hahaha Driver License

My life is sooo very exciting... and so full of ahhhhhhh moments recently. I screwed up the post about getting a test done and being handed a gown and asking the nurse if the gown would fit me and she looked at me oddly and said "uhhh Yes!" It was just a natural reaction from a formerly fat, very fat ok morbidly super obese person. I was so shocked I took a picture... hmm I wonder if I can load a picture? Oh yes I did it! hahaha Please note sweater and shirt still on as I was freezing! See it's a 3 arm gown and I was able to fit in it Yeahhhhh me!

Ok so today I had to make a copy of my license and noticed that I am 3 pound below what my Drivers license says I am!! Geez to think it took me 78 weeks to get to my DL weight but at least I'm there!

hahahaha Ain't life grand?

A WOW moment flat on my butt :)

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It was a GREAT moment this morning. An unseasonably wet morning and I as usual went out to retrieve my newspaper. I was wearing my slippers that are worn thin and whoops I slipped and splat fell flat down on my fanny! This in itself was freaky... so why was I smiling? I could GET UP WITH NO HELP!!! This has been my biggest nightmare and one of the 120,998 reasons why I chose to have WLS surgery the fear that if and when I fell I would not be able to get myself up. I tripped at work one day a few months ago and others rushed to help me... but I kinda felt as though I could have done it myself but was to timid to try it again by myself. I not only was able to get up I did it this morning with absolutely no problems. Well except to see if my fanny is going to be black and blue tomorrow... but I was laughing and ^5ing myself as I went up the stairs! What a great way to start the day! I can GET UP!!!

Week 60

Wowee Zowee... how is it possible? If I looked forward 58 weeks ago I would not and could not have imagined the changes in my body that would occur over the next year. I had no clue. Yes I have hanging chads... errr skin issues and yes I have psoriasis now which is an autoimmune disease which is largely from stress and is chronic. But many people only have to endure one outbreak and I am hopefully that this is my one. I am taking steroids for it which I am not crazy about taking but this may help to control the symptoms. There is no cure and no real studies going on apparently. It can be aggravated by stress and about a zillion other things.
The good news is things could be worse A LOT WORSE and for that I am very grateful.
My skin issues are not a surprise but I am surprised at how a modest 2. - 2.5 pound loss a week for a year could create this much skin and I still have almost 100 pounds to go. Oy vey!
I am a new GP Dr. She pointed at my stomach and said... "Are you going to do something with that?" I hadn't really considered it and if truth is known any time someone mentioned it I recoiled in horror. Why would I have my skin cut off INTENTIONALLY? Can you can I imagine the pain of having yards and yards of skins surgically removed? Ewwww But a couple friends have told me that after all of this hard work don;t you deserve to have a body in clothing that looks more than just a hanging deflated bag that sways too and fro... OH. Ohhhhhhhhhhh
Now It's becoming more clear. Maybe I need to change my Insurance deductible to a lower level. What are you thinking about?

I did not mean to type about skin issues. But I guess I was thinking about it more than I thought I was.

Jamie Oliver The post below

This is an incredible video. Please take 20 minutes and watch it. Particularly if you have kids.
XO