Friday, August 21, 2009

On a roll

Right now THIS is how I feel. Just had a glass of skim milk and feel like I want to urp it up. This is the 3rd time I have felt this way since surgery. No that's not true. At 1st I could tolerate milk and in the past several weeks the milk has not agreed with me. Am I becoming lactose intolerant? I heard that was a possible by product of surgery. Maybe I drank it too fast? Maybe too much? Today I actually had a "Smart Ones" Lasagna. I think it had 17 grams of protein which is great and 350 calories. Perfect since I forgot to eat breakfast (imagine THAT!). Ahhhhh 2 burps I feel a little better.

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Food Just ain't "all that" anymore

It's the oddest thing... we were having a meeting during lunch today and someone asked me what I wanted, what I preferred. I eat so little of what is offered now, it really just doesn't matter. I kind of wanted Pizza and a salad, or BBQ Chicken. They wanted Chinese so I went to Eggface (The blogger) and looked up Chinese food to see what she had to say on Chinese food. She's post op a couple years and loves food so she is a good barometer. Egg foo yung or something else home made sounded great but what about take out? I ordered Beef Chow Mein. Took the meat out for my portion had a few noodles and all visible veggies. On a small paper plate that was maybe 1/2 to 3/4 of a cup.
It's just not fun anymore.. its boring. I am full and okay and can't eat anymore which is GREAT don't get me wrong. Sometimes I think this is how normal people feel. I am more and more convinced that there is something in the stomach that controls the hunger too, it's not just the brain, it's right there in the stomach. I am so different. I am so hesitant to eat almost anything now. It's really very good that I have these cautions. Is this how normal people feel about food? How they interact with food? Look at food? Am I normalizing? Wow wouldn't THAT be cool!
As of Monday I was down 76 post op (February 9, 2009) and 105 (!!) since August 2008. Cool Very Very Cool.