New Years Resolutions!

I saw or rather noticed my 1st Weight Watchers commercial on TV this morning and realized that for the first time in recent memory I will NOT be stewing about adding Weight Watchers to my weekly plan of joining now while the joining fee is waived. Yeah WLS!

I love WW and their program although it is a little heavy on carbs for this new WLS person. Balance and veggies... what could be bad.

But back to not having to feel guilty about joining... now do I feel guilty about not having to join? Nawwwwww Whooooopeeeeeee!

EXCITED!

Happy New Year me!

Just so I won't forget....

Since this is ALL ABOUT ME.
A new vendor came into the office a couple times and wanted to take me out to lunch. I largely don't "do" lunch with strangers and particularly vendor who may or may not be here today and gone tomorrow so I was joking with hm and said my table manners were atrocious and I was not a good or suitable lunch attendee (I told (suggested) her take my assistant out for lunch). He looked at me and said "Gee, come on look at you how much could you eat? WHOAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA that shocked me ... in  a good way 1st because he never ever knew me at almost 400 pounds and 2nd because I am so small... well except for my giant legs and he had only seen me behind the desk. BLEW MY MIND! whooppeee
Also went on my 1st hike in many years in Crestline this past weekend... a mountainous area about 4000 ft. IN So. California and over uneven terrain and although I did suffer from a lack of confidence I did complete the very short hike 9Maybe a mile or a little more) and went up and down. Another thing - a non-scale victory and something I haven't done for almost 10 years I'd bet.
Yeah Meeeeeeeeeeee Thank you to my Dr. as well... he made this possible so I tanked him yesterday when I had my quarterly visit. 28 months today!

103 Weeks out

Yeah one more week and I will be at two year surgiversary! Wow the time has flown by which is a testament in any one's hesitancy to have the surgery I am thinking.
HAVE IT and the time just slips by. Which it would have done anyway ... but wow what a great couple of years with a lot of learning and a lot of good experiences.
I was at group the other night and sat next to woman who I sat next to 13 months ago she told me. She had just had surgery a week or two previously and I was impressed that she was out and about and COOKING for her family at 2 weeks from surgery!
13 months later and we look FABBBBBBULOUS although we both have more weight to lose... she about the same as I but not the same kind of weight. My legs are the issue and she is still overall a little plump. Will try and do a more reflective post on my surgiversary on the 9th but need to formulate a little more.

UGhhhh Some habits die hard. DIE bad habits DIE!

We got cookies at the office for Christmas and the can is down to the final few. Sure I take a couple now and then. I am not a cookie fiend so I feel that a cookie occasionally if properly administered is ok. HOWEVER
Knowing that the cookie tin is shrinking and seeing others go to the cookie tin and remove what may be the final cookies really bothers me. WHY?
I can buy cookies if I want and any amount that I want if I want to.
I don't mind sharing.
I don't NEED them.
Am i just being greedy?
Am I compelled to have cookies?
I think this is by-product of my overweight of so many years I feel competitive.
I want them to leave me the last cookie... after all I'm the boss.
Oh PLEASE! Buy your own darn cookies or not.
They are employees for heaven's sake let them have them!!
They are just COOKIES!
Ok I feel better... kinda.
BRB I need to see if the cookies are gone... hehehe
I want the empty tin too.
PS there were Holiday cookies in the freezer from Christmas 2009 here and I threw them away when the 2010 cookies started arriving. WHAT is the ISSUE you dim wit?
Buy your own darn cookies if you want a cookie so bad.
Die urge for cookies DIE!
Anyone else feel so compulsed for some food item?
I hate this feeling!