This is NOT a Race

I am back on track. I feel good. Had my 1st sugar rush yesterday and was kinda quaky all day and had too much unprotected sun. Did not intentionally eat sugar just too many carbs in the AM which i guess turned to sugar. I thought I was okay and was headed out to visit a work site but got shaky and sickly and weak but took a shower and was okay. I need to mix protein in with a carb. So this morning I had string cheese and a graham cracker. That was fine. Not really testing myself anymore hopefully that was just a phase. Am 302 today and want to be under 300 sooo bad and then 279 which is what I was in 1997. Hopefully this time next week I will be at or under 300 and try to get to 279 by Sept. 1st that's 10 weeks at 2 pounds a week. Gee at 291 I will be down 100 pounds since August 1st. I need to set a goal of walking more every day and see if I can get to 291 by August 1 that's 36 days.. I think I can do it. 11 pounds in 36 days. whoo hoo!

Straying

Hmmmm things are changing very gradually. I am much better with no overfilling my baby stomach and throwing up much less. However I just noticed that I am starting to TEST my pouch. Not with sugars or fats per se but in subtle other ways. Last night I went to Presto Pasta and although I usually have a green salad with Gorgonzola and pear and walnuts with a diced breast on the side. Last night i got the sampler knowing i wouldn't be able to eat it all. Chicken picatta and lasagna and fetuchini Alfredo. I ate about a 3" sq. of lasagna. and maybe two bites of the chicken and one mouthful of the fettuchini. Took a LONG time to get it to settle in my stomach so I think that the fats and the carbs were too much. This is the 1st dangerous thing I have done from my previous life before surgery. Very stupid. The remainder sits in my frig. I need to toss it out or at least the Alfredo. The chicken was not bad. But even if it had a little sauce that is more fat than I need. I need to be better at planning meals. I used to be great and cook on Sundays for the week,. I need to start that again. I need to look up recipes on Eggfaces Blog. :)
This could get very dangerous very quickly; this straying from the path, I have worked too hard to screw this up. Carbs have not been a real issue since surgery, proteins and sugars and fats are what I am keeping track of... but I think I need to be working smarter.