Thursday, August 20, 2009

Food Just ain't "all that" anymore

It's the oddest thing... we were having a meeting during lunch today and someone asked me what I wanted, what I preferred. I eat so little of what is offered now, it really just doesn't matter. I kind of wanted Pizza and a salad, or BBQ Chicken. They wanted Chinese so I went to Eggface (The blogger) and looked up Chinese food to see what she had to say on Chinese food. She's post op a couple years and loves food so she is a good barometer. Egg foo yung or something else home made sounded great but what about take out? I ordered Beef Chow Mein. Took the meat out for my portion had a few noodles and all visible veggies. On a small paper plate that was maybe 1/2 to 3/4 of a cup.
It's just not fun anymore.. its boring. I am full and okay and can't eat anymore which is GREAT don't get me wrong. Sometimes I think this is how normal people feel. I am more and more convinced that there is something in the stomach that controls the hunger too, it's not just the brain, it's right there in the stomach. I am so different. I am so hesitant to eat almost anything now. It's really very good that I have these cautions. Is this how normal people feel about food? How they interact with food? Look at food? Am I normalizing? Wow wouldn't THAT be cool!
As of Monday I was down 76 post op (February 9, 2009) and 105 (!!) since August 2008. Cool Very Very Cool.


  1. Congratulations on the weight loss! I so hope to be there someday.

    I know what you mean. I said recently that I was "over" food--I kind of am. Now and then something smells just amazing and I might want one bite, but one bite is enough. I realize I'm not very far in (or out, whatever) and food will always be the thing I have to resist, but I've already been to restaurants with people eating yummy verboten things across from me--and I just didn't care.

  2. You WILL be here and sooner than you think! I can't believe it's been 27 weeks. Looking back time has flown by learning, testing, throwing up lol and finding new old clothes in the farthest reaches of my closet. I am looking at all of the sale summer catalogues. What size will I wear next summer? How can I possobly buy any hot deals now? Grrr what a delimina (LUCKY me)