It continues to amaze me even 58 (!) weeks post op how things change and how things remain the same. The RELATIONSHIP we WLS peeps have with food is a nasty little devil... but with our tool... the surgery it slaps us upside the head and says No No Noooooooooooooo I think NOT. Gone are the days when I looked forward to a solitary meal as a delight, a comfort, a fun time . Food now is a necessary maybe not an evil but something that I must do to 1. stay healthy 2. groom myself for stamina and 3. Get through.
Sunday used to be my favorite day of the week to eat and Breakfast my favorite meal with Dinner right behind and yesterday ...just yesterday I realized it's lost it's allure . Now its not planning "ohhh ewww goody what am I gonna eat?" It's "okay I need to eat a little and what is it going to be ?" "Can I get close to 20 grams of protein?"...again a feeling that I think regular weight people have who have normal weight and treat food as fuel feel. Eat it get it over with and move on. I kinda sorta miss the food... I sorta miss the high, I sorta miss the friend that was food but then isn't that how I got here?
I'll STILL take THIS new feeling rather than the old feeling any day however! How about you?
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My view has changed a lot--I definitely think of food as fuel now, except I still push it a bit with sugar. (When I say "push it" that means two pieces of candy instead of one!) I don't really miss food as a friend, because it turned out to be such a backstabber. Even though there are a lot of things I can't eat now--and even though sometimes they smell reeeeaalllly good when others are eating them--I would definitely would rather be where I am now!
ReplyDeleteHmmm thats very interesting Salt. I did not really consider food my friend when I was fat(ter!)... but I would "say" that it was but I never really beleived it until now... all these weeks post op. Maybe its a True Confessions :).
ReplyDeleteI am intrigued however with your comment that having food as a friend stabbed you in the back. That is EXCELLENT and a great way to start thinking of it. Thank you!